Autumn has come to the city and with it, rain and wind.
It looks and feels amazing to walk through a large expanse of trees in a park with the leaves dancing with rain all around you. Also cold, but it is a chill you can bear. Work has begun, but because of my late sign up I have to wait a couple of days before my shifts begin. I’m just so excited. My experiences working with the company have been so amazing and even if I end up tired by the days end, it was worth it.
I was happily surprised to see that a few people remembered me. Usually the higher ups only pay close attention to those who sucked up or naturally meshed well with their personalities, so it gave me a small piece of happiness. I can finally start thinking about where I want to go, who I want to go with me, and how to go there.
Ugh have you ever felt such bliss? Of not actually needing anything? Wants, sure we always want something, but to know that your needs are taken care of and you for the time being can rest and focus on YOU. On what your heart desires.
Thank you, God for leading me through the weathered storm and out into the clearing. I will work even harder now because that work will pay off. Even if it might be scary to have so many possibilities in front of me. Even if I feel anxiety at the thought of making the ‘wrong’ choice. I will ultimately close my eyes, exhale and trust in the universe that watches over our little Earth.
I’m sure they are happy, knowing their little star child can’t stop smiling right now.
Sitting here, looking at the waning moon peaking through my curtains, I feel so…whimsical.
Can I say that? It just feels like a night of magic for some reason. The sky is a dark purplish black like those nights you imagine witches thrive on. The stars are winking and whispering silent encouragements in the chill autumn air, leaving me to feel very thoughtful.
The world is different, I am different. A flawed person with hopes for the future that are sure to come true this time. All the time.
I’m working, making money, but that is only the start. One small exhilarating turn on this roller coaster. Its only the beginning.
The first thing I really want to do is buy some shoes for myself. To me, buying this and other small things like a sweater, a pair of skinny jeans that feel oh so comfy, some bunny slippers, they are tangible extensions of the self. A small piece of happiness brought for you to find. And for me, my journey begins with shoes.
Speaking of pieces of tangible happiness, I should share some photos soon of the items I have bought that make me giggle and squeal with glee. Soon..very soon.
Pokemon comes out tomorrow so if anyone wants to battle me/ squee at the cuteness of pokemonamie/ chat about things with a 23 year old girlie, feel free! My 3DS code is 1650-2188-0559